YLet's Walk The Path Together Hand In Hand.
30DECEMBER2007
Damn it. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck! Someone stab me please. I beg yoou. I can't stand it anymore! I'm all the blames. I cause NIAP to people. God, let me suffer from a kind of sickness like cancer &let the illness torture me to death. Those niap will take it as those sin/those niap i cause to people. I can't stand it anymore, take me away from this tortured world. I had enough. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. I don't like this path i'm walking. Why am i born in this world? Tell me a good reason why i should continue to live in this world? Answer: There's no reasons. I'm sinful, harmful, irritating &evil. *Supeeeer dupeeeer utteeeer sorry sorry that i'm always negative, depressed, sad, bleeding, emo-ing. Take a plug to charge me if yoou want, best is charge me till i'm dead due to electric shock. Arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm so fan! I feel like crying again. :[ School gonna starts soon. I don't want to go to school, i don't want a new year, i don't know what am i afraid of. This or that? Or both? Dots. How i wish time can stop. :[
29DECEMBER2007
Went to take cert &money. Wow! Surprise to see that amount of money. x]
Evening, i was thinking of many many many things. So hurtful. Those sins i did in the past &present. :[ Praying to god, wishing i will get an illness that will torture me to death. Why am i like that again? Why can't my brain just shut down when i'm negative? Dots. Think till i cried a bit then stop then think again then cried a bit again-.- Silly girl. After daddy went to work, he leave the house, i started to cry again. I was thinking too much again. This time cried quite long till brobro say time to go out lerh, i try to stop. He saw me crying, keep asking me why. Then i just answered, 'cannot cry meh?' then quickly get changed as we're going to be late. =x Then i waited a while as my face is red lurh. Then went to cp KFC &had dinner with Terence, Xiangren &Aaron. Big mouth brobro lurh, go tell Terence i cried. Dots. But when i came out of my house i'm calming down already. :] Brobro's maple friend came then lol! Aaron go tell them we're sitting over there. But they paiseh, sit other table. Then one of the girl scold fuck, crazy hurh? Anyhow scold fuck. Dots. After walking out of KFC a while later, i having headaches(--') Then something happened, went home think too much again, get a bit emo again. But not as much as evening till cry lorh. :[ Sad day.
28DECEMBER2007
Meet Terence, Zhengkang &Ellice outside cp 7-11 then walk around cp a while then walk to school. Hahaha;D Wait for Fion at the blue hall then went in the school. Damn it lorh. Waited quite long for the class list &booklist. Walked to the office ask for booklist then they say don't have so walk to bookshop, they say no sec 5 books at all-.- Walk back to the office &the class list finally came out. Got the booklist too but we all leave. Lol. Waste my time. I can spend my noon outside shop shop lorh-.- Then walk with Terence, Zhengkang &Derrick. Zhengkang walk half way then went home as his house is nearby. Then Terence &i accompany Derrick to cp then Terence accompany me home. He sit outside wait for me to get change. Ops, sorry sorry that i took so long. =x Take 161 to Terence's house. He get change then i use his laptop to sign in msn. Lol. Joey had something cropped up &we had to go without her. :[ Walked to HM then take MRT to Sengkang to meet Zhengkang then proceed to Clarke Quay. Woohoo! :D We don't know where to walk as i feel we came out the wrong way, it seems like Chinatown & not Clarke Quay. Lol... Anyhow walk &we end up at Clarke Quay then we sit down at the river there, watching those boats &smelling the salty river. Ekkk~ Anyhow walk around. It's full of bar at Clarke Quay. Then we stop a while, sit down a while. Then i wanted to explore Boat Quay too &see Explanade but none of us knew the way. Hohoho. Asked a man as he is working at Clarke Quay so i doubt he know the way to Boat Quay. :] Then we walk &it's quite far, crossing two long roads &the traffic is not every road have. Pass by Fort Canning. Lol. Walked half way, my stomach hurts again. Don't know why. Morning my stomach hurts then after a while not hurt anymore. Haish. Weak stomach. :[ Walk at Boat Quay, it's like a long straight line. Lol! It have many seafood restaurant selling crabs &lobster. :] Walked till UOB then went to Mac to eat. After Mac, walked back to Clarke Quay. Went to Vivo City next. Went to Toy'r'us. Saw Paul. Hahaha;D I like small little girl like that, see what toys, play with those baby's toys. (--') Then saw elmo &a big big cookie monster!♥ The cookie monster very big lorh, so cute! Hahaha;D Too bad, elmo don't have big one. Take some photos with cookie monster then walk around then leave. Walked around Vivo then went to the outside. There were many children 'swimming' in the 'pool'. Lol. Went to the other side, standing there. The wind was big man! So windy. ;D Zhengkang went to sit on the stairs then Terence went to sit on the ground. &i'm standing in the middle daydreaming. d: 6.30pm liao, had to rush back &have dinner with brobro. While walking back to Vivo, saw a boy 'swimming' with his pampers. Rofl. Take MRT to &called my brobro, planned to have buddy meal with Terence &my brobro but it's ruined. Lol. My brobro say 7 plus liao, so late, he don't want to go out eat. End up i go buy Zinger home for him. Dots. We three are walking under the rain. Lol. Reached my house downstairs the rain is super small till it's like gonna stop. Went home bathe. Blar blar blar.
Stab Me &Let Me Bleed In Niap To Death.
You Will Never Be Replaced, I Promise;
