Would You Run &Never Look Back?
Would You Cry If You Saw Me Crying?
Would You Be My Hero &Kiss Away My Niap?
I Wish,*
&You Will Never Be Replaced; I Promise.
x831.
& I L O V E Y O U, B O Y ♥
The doctor say the operation have no risk lurh. But the doctor says a very high percentage the operation will not work, 6 people out of 10 people did the operation but it don't works instead it'll be WORSE! My gosh! D: What should i do? Is there other choice? I doubt no. :'[ The doctor also say after operation, must always go back regularly for injection. How much of my parents' money will i waste? :[ Thinking of the state i'm in, i rather die now. Seriously, after i see the doctor, my tears keep on wanting to roll down but i keep holding my tears. I don't want my mummy to see me crying. After we come out, while walking home, she say to me, she see me like that very kake-xim &all the bad things fall on me, i really want to cry out loud at that moment but i don't want them to see me crying so i endure. Then mummy also ask me, why i'm not afraid at all... Youu don't even know, how much i'm worrying deep inside, how much i feel like crying, how much blood i'm bleeding deep down, the real fact is i'm MORE afraid than youu do! I'm just acting strong like i don't care but deep down i'm bleeding, why am i that unlucky from small till now &maybe the future too?
Haish. :[ Then mummy say go temple before going home. Go pray first. When i'm praying, my tears want to roll down again. I kept holding my tears till i reached home. Kept telling myself i'll be fine, god will bless me. Haish. Perhaps lying to myself that i'll be fine? When i reached home, i went straight to my room, quickly lock the door &my tears keep rolling down. I can't endure anymore. Other than that wound, there's another wound on my heart. I feel i'm a burden to everyone. I'm sorry. Especially my parents. I'm super duper utter sorry.I've got many bad things happened to me &i'm alway wasting my parents' money. :[ On Monday, the hospital will call me for a date for my appointment. I'm afraid, soooo afraid. No one understands. Haish. I don't know whether i'll be that lucky 4 person or that unlucky 6 person? I don't think i'll be that lucky. I'm NEVER lucky. Haish. Don't want continue anymore or esle i'll cry out again. :[ May god bless me, my family, my good buds.
If my love ones were safe &i should die to sacrificed, i rather i die than my family &good buds suffer. Maybe this happen to me because i'm the one who need to be sacrificed? Then bless my *family &*good buds. Haish... I'm feeling very down now. :[ Sorry sorry.You Will Never Be Replaced, I Promise;
